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CONGRATZ
THANKS FOR UR'S MEMORIES
WISH YOU GET A NEW HAPPINESS LIFE
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THE ENDS
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Emotional

Shoot me die better.Get out of my mind.

She walked in fear on the lonesome world,
She stand in the intersection cross n
She wonder where should walk and turn to,
Look like the cloud without direction.
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Everyone experiences these problems at sometimes in their's lives.
Perhaps this is the way where life must be pasted.
Though it feels lonely sometimes,isn't really that melancholy when change and think from another angle.Everything will be all right.
As ppl said::we'll cross the bridge when we come to it.
(unfortunately She can't take it easily)
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She seeming indifference to handle the matter bcuz
She's always tender of hurting other peoples feelings.
She had feeling of guilt to someone bcuz
She pretended that nothing had happened.
She once felt disheartened bcuz of a certain thing too.
She have been puzzling about this question for a long time n
She felt embarrassed at being the character.
She find it hard to tell,She find it hard to take.
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Thank you for accompanying her to tide over lonely days.
Thank you for accompanying her to be wild and get high insanely to nite.
Thank you for accompanying her to wining and dining.
Thank you for accompanying her to merry and pleasure-seeking everywhere.
Thanks for the memories and making her's life become more colourful.
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Only her fault not to dare to the l.o.v.e.
Maybe she should learn bout it...
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She's looking forward to the future.
But in the end it's still so lonely.
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The moment

The diary describes the way of my life:

If you are the friend who i know well,tat can probably hear my recent state through my facebook wall and comments.(though i am too own to come here to publish a bit for a long time).As you know,Miss Vivian is type of the gal always busying for working and sleeping.Sometimes attended to party nite for relaxing and enjoying wif my buddies and babes..hehee =p
Well,i live an abandoned life right nw b'cuz i suspended my course for temporarily ownly.Otherwise,i'm consider to shift a new course of studies n will be continue/repeated on next year.There r several factors have been adducted to explain it,it is perhaps the pressure built up of the different fields.(felt stress).I hope that i can live in competence.No worry bout anytrouble..That's a great life!
Besides,a lot of things and changes have taken place in these several months too.It seems that many things in our lives go by contraries.Similar,Happy and Joyous,Excited,Disappointed,Sorrow,Flounder,to hesitate.......
Anyway,i juz wan to built a BETTER life,can I?Sigh...since i lived alone,i should take care of my self.
I can look after myself b'cuz i'm Miss independent.^^
Here my recent new pictures:*everybody thought tat a model shooting,act is'nt^^*
I like the gal in the picture.She's beautiful~XD~(a little over-confident)

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''Live life to the fullest.Make every moment count''
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Dear readers

Miss Vivian here,do you miss me??hehe=)

A veri simply posted here^^
I'm lazy (as the pic of dog aboveXD) blogging
and busying recently.
Come back to you all soon.wait ya~

I hope tat my billy zai hav a same look wif this handsome poddles
So Cuttteeeeee!!!!

addict to this song

MEANINGFULL SONG
林宥嘉- 那首歌

I <3

Miley Cyrus : The Climb

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreamin' but
There's a voice inside my head saying
you'll never reach it.
Every step I'm taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin.
But I, I gotta keep tryin.
Gotta keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on 'cause,

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes you're gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

Yeah-yeah-yea

Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith,
Baby.

It's all about,
It's all about the climb.
Keep your faith,
Keep your faith.

可不可以爱我 卢学叡

Prior of this month

There were be a fairly long time i never update my blogspot since i busy as a bee recently. Apart from anything else,something about my study stuff is make i confusing so...i really go off one's head about those things.Somemore ,i always received message from buddies when i'm working around.The purpose of them sure as::CLub?Movie?on?>.<...
I'd love to come but i'm completely snowed under at the moment.I felt very sorry to all my babies.
Beside that,i can't go to movie during the time busy.I'm up to my eyesbrow,Wat the suburban lifestyle that i have! Definitely,Miss vivian was too bound up in work to have much time for living at leisure life!Work Hard,Play Harder,do you think i can make it?I hope so,i wanna to live idle life and it's look insufficient oxygen to me,pls supply a adequate sapce for my breathing system.I should be capable of resisting although that i feel tired into work continously,but i've no choice.
I certain that won;t be release and give up.I relatively look to this one side of the wealth.It's one of the most difficult problems be setting our modern way of life. Maybe u'r not agree for that or maybe you're.
p/s:Sometimes i dislike for other peoples to judge on me in weak position and try to give any advices to change my mind.It's possible you're wrong at all,is b'cuz you did not know bout me.My ways of life are worlds apart to the others.Fine,I just get along wif my dearest babe in private.WEll.i wil change my roving lifestyle and find a true vocation of life.
I do neglect to my hubby and darling recently.T.T.Don't worry,i fit as a fiddle now.
Babes,i coming back to you all soon.^.^

NOTHING SPECIAL

ARGHhhh....
I CANT GET WELL ASLEEP AT NITE RECENTLY...
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WAT HAPPEN!!!!!!!
Talked bout ytd nite,after i came back from neway-ts at 4a.m wif my sis and tsong,i was started lying on the bed and listening 88.1 fm,somemore played my puzzle bobbles game till 7a.m only fall asleep!Izzit i have a deep sick!!
IT'S LOOK LIKE VERY SERIOUSLY..>.<
TOmorrow no need go campus gain,b'cuz the lecture class was canceled.
Bored life ! bored life ! bored life ! bored life ! Nothing entertain!!
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p/s::
I HAVE A DREAM AND I WISH MY DREAM WILL BE COME TRUE.
(hopefully)^.^

Meaningful

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Why do we feel bored?
We let the time go by without making full use of it.
We let ourselves feel the boredom because we do not want to do anything wif the time we have in our hands.
We should not let the time go to waste because time and tide wait for no man.
If we can fill the 60 seconds wif anything worthwhile,the world is ours.
Let that be one of the principles of our life.

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Random pictures::
For someone who passed through in my life
-thankful for you-


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One in the morning at lecture hall
they're CLEVER in their studies although always sleep in the class.

It's creative in design::Umbrella(look like bottle of wain)

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-03March09-HAPPY TIME-
Went to sing k wif 3''C'' at ts
Chuang chiang,Chiew han,Chun hoe ^.^
Enjoy my life~cheer~

Its not IDEAL!!!

My exam results had been published on the internet in this saturday.(07 march 09)
I'm visibly nervous about that.When i woke up at noon,i received many messages from my campus frens for inquired about my results.I walked to turn on my com and search it quickly.PASS or FAIL (this is a matter of general anxiety)...It's a lamentable result...i'm disappointed and my hope was oozed away!I was dejected that i had found 2 ''C-'' in my results!!The unpalatable truth::

Building Material -''C-''

Building Construction-''C-''(geik sei!!)

This is not a happy occasion for me!What can i do,just console my self with the thought that i did my best.>.<.But,luckily i passed my resit paper-Measurement!Most of our students attained good grades and passed in the exams.(congrats for your all)~They studies views are directly opposed to mine.That you know my school career was not very impressive,so,i should work harder.
The door to knowledge is study::::Make more effort in scholastic achievements.

YOU CAN DO IT WELL!!MS.VIVIAN,gambateh!!

p/s::thanks to my frens for your's comforting words~although it's a few words of consolation~

NIce

SONG:::IF YOU WANT ME

Tagged by Berrymui

[ 100 ] yeahhhh...i'm done

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01. What have you been doing recently?
:dine out wif my sis them and watching hong kong drama(nw)
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
:sometimes... when it hangs
03. What had happened at 10.00 am today?
:i still in dream...haha
04. When did you last cry?
:I think is when I watch the movie-Look for a star-.just rolled down a tear only
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
:50%.
06. What do you want in your life right now?
:a trouble-free life
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains,or just put up your hood?
:Sure,if I remember to bring it (umbrella).
08.What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
:long-pillow.
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
:black.
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
:hubby. keke
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
:nope..it made felt tired and non-meaning eventually too.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
:no.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
:The Curious Of Benjamin Buttons, Nice! Almost 3 hours movie.
14. What are you proud of?
:My shadow,it follow me where ever I go,what ever I do.

** No stress in everthingand no law of life,freedom **
15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
:which inbox? i dun understand .XD

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
:Thinking of you-Katy Perry
17. Do you have any nicknames?
:lol..a lots lol..big eyes,rui rui,cha siew bao,cha siew dui.=.=’
18. What does you last received text message say?
:nope.going thr eat..almost reach ady.y? –from my sis..
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
:5.30am..played pokers wif sis and plol leo..not gambling,keke
20. Are you currently happy?
:Sometimes when the world is‘peace’..
21. Who gives you best advice?
:my hubby – Paulynn, my darling – Qiqi, my sister-Jacqueline
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
:No...
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
:1300-13-1300 is MCD company.i called delivery mcd last midnight..XD
24.Is anyone bugging you right now?
:Nope.
25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
:I’m not stupid-2.(i repeated watch at last day)
26. Do you wear toe socks?
:No.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
:Mom and AH ken
28.Have you ever had your heartbroken?
:Sure…and hurt deeply
29. What annoys you most in a person?
:self-importance,arrogant
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
:.....no comment

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
:Nope.
32. What is the colour of your room?
:apple green
33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
:How if be caught red-handed …spent my life in prison?
34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
:No
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
:Myself.
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
:He
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
:I think so...
38. Do you have a life?
:Sure…is only end when I die.
39. Have you ever think someone died,when they really didn't die?????
:Yupp.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
:My feeling and meaning song 41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
:myself
42. Last time you smiled?
:now I smile,passed last second?..
43. Have you changed this year?
:Yes.
44. What are you listening right now?
:Thinking of you by Katy Perry
45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
:nope..is nobody at home now..just me and billy(dog)
46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
:nothing problem for my eyes,of course with eyes opened..
47. Is there a quote you live by?
:nothing lah …’
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
:Yes,I hope so..:If I go sleep the trouble will get away from me?.
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
:Flute..when I was studied primary school
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
:not enough FUN for this week..is going open school on next week.
51. What are you doing last night at 11 pm?
:Online-facebook-eating MCD-
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
:my love???
53. What song best describe your love life?
:against all odds–Mariah Carey and Westlife
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
:everyone..cuz I love nobody..XD
55. Who always make you laugh?
:My dearest friends…
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
:Yes.
57. Favourite website(s)?
: http://vivian-ruirui.blogspot.com
58. What's your middle name?
:sheau
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
:Going out for dinner or nite market
60. What do you think you are like?
:AFFLUENT…
61. Who will you choose to die with?
:Never think it/
62. Where have you been today?
:Shemelin perkasa,and My hs.
63. What game do you play often?
:Puzzle Bobble (Highscores now::2668280)^.^
64. Who are you missing right now?
:nobody…is FOOD in my brain..cuz I hungry nw
65. If you have to choose between friend and love,who will you choose?
:Friends..(no lover nw)hahax
66. What are you doing right now?
:Tagging..
67. Which primary school are you from?
:SJKC(C) JLN.IMBI
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
:Black,White,Blue...
69. What emotion you like to show?
:^.^
70. What is your life to you?
:my journey
71. If you have something troubling you,what will you do?

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
:Nobody..is appear offline nw
73. Who do you admire most?
:Britney Spears-Sexy woman
74. Which month are you born in?
:Gemini JUNE
75. How are you feeling right now?
:Wanted to eat.
76. What is the time now?
:10.33pm
77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
:genial,clever,considerate and she know*WHO I AM* is my best ji mui in my life.

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
:i don't know what colour is that too.
79. Why are you doing this test?
:my hubby tagged me.(I think is my 1st time)
80. What do you do when you're moody?
:Listening music,playing game,hanging out wif fren ...
81. At which age you wish to get married?
:around 26,27
82. Who is more important to you?
:My friends and my family.
83. If today is the last day of your life,what will you do?
:I can’t think it nw…=.=’

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
:myself
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
:Yes,just depend the location where you are,because this is natural phenomena.
86. If you have a dream come true,what would it be?
:No comment…keke…
87. What is your goal for this year?
:Reduce the stress in study,find a mr.right,hav more happily memories.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
:never!
89. What feeling do you love most?
:of course is Happy lol.
90. Do you really think it's global warming now?
:Now fine a little bit,last few days damn hot,can’t tahan!!
91. What feeling do you hate the most?
:I’d been tricked.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
:of course i do..
93. Do you believe in God?
:50%.
94. Who cares for you most?
:Myself..XD
95. What do you think is the most important thing in you life?
:the parts of my life when I still breathing..
96. What will you bring when you fight?
:gum...sure win..hahax
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
:…the wrong decision between them..just forget
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
:sad and lonely
99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
:never think of it before..
100. How do you feel now?
:GLAD,finally done,I can go eat nw…^.^

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I've tagged::
- Chiew Han
- Chuan Liang
- Kelvin
- pLol leo
- Yin ling
- REne
- Kenneth Lim
- Jennifer Hew
- Geok ooi
- Lee chen

Time End To ''WAR''

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Two weeks after my examination.I began to feel restless.
Three more weeks to go!I've to start my next semester.
Obviously,this is not enough.>.<
What should i do during the holidays? PART TIME again..?
I start to calculate how much i could earn by just working around few an hours,I would be rich,I thought.^.^( illusionary )
Nevertheless,'' ENTERTAINMENT '' was filling whole parts of my brain. is lazy go for working at now.Maybe...soon...
Is time to say bye to ATGB 1714 MEASUREMENT I
Pls dun let me take yours gain.. that was my resit paper which finished by today..04 FEB 09
Hopefully...just let me get grade B or C was enough for me,
I'm not greedy although i knew i didn't do well ,but i tried my best!
( I felt good because i did not exactly lie ) wakaka.
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I went to campus earlier for discussing and revision with frens at 12pm.
we met ''mok jui'' kai xen when reached at canteen 1.However,i cant found my darling-QIQI at there.Generally,she'll be there often~
When he saw this....and asked ''what is this''

I answered him::this is SWORD,used for war later.
Actually, that is a measurement ruler - Not A Toy.
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TIME's up..
::( I knew today is the last day for yours all exam,pls leave the class with quitely and don't kick the tables and chairs.)
LOLx.....we're not impish and childishly..how time of life on me..is going 19 d...
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I started arrange and tidy my study table when i got home,
and it's time to arrange my HOLIDAYS APPOINMENTs too~~yeaHhhhh....
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going upload more post soon~wait ya~~